Right now I am in my final year and placements are going on in our campus. But right now I am pretty much depressed.
There are various reason why I am depressed. first, I faced more than 10 rejections and three of them just before the final round. Second, For most of the company , I can not able to clear the online assessment round only, While others are clearing the online assessment quite easily. They have interviews of that companies. Third, I have a bad habit of comparing myself with others especially comparing myself with my friends. Most of my friends has recieved PPO after internship in a good company, while others got placed with the higher package. Some has the HR interview lined up in coming days of higher Package. I hope that they will get placed because they support me a lot. While on the other hand I am still struggling to get a chance for a technical Interview. Fourth, as a bigger companies (in terms of package)are coming and recruiting the students , Not only me but many students believe that as the days are passing the companies will higher packages will not come. Fifth, Since I am so depressed from this my parents are insisting me to do higher studies. Ya i understand the pain my parents are feeling after seeing me depressed , and their advice is right as well since higher studies may lead to get selected in better companies . But at the same time I do not want to do any more studies . If I have the power I will make BE/B.Tech for just 3 years. I only know from how much difficulty I passed in all semester. I am not into too much studies because I was more into python programming rather than those physics, Chemistry, mechanical, computer networking(these are some of the subjects till 5th semester). So may be because of this I scored less SGPA(I do not have too less SGPA, it is almost 8). This is another reason for my depression (sixth reason of my depression). Because of this SGPA , I can not able to qualify for the online assessment of some of the companies , who I really want to join. But ya if I do not get a good job, I have no other option but to do higher studies. Seventh Reason will be again comparison, I used to compare my friends with me in term of the colleges they get. Most of my friend got admission in IIT or NIT or bits or IIIT. But I got admission in BIT. Ya BIT is also a good college . But ya every 11th standard student has a dream to get selected in either IIT or best NIT having CS branch or bits. But I get none.
There May be so many reasons why I am depressed I am going to put that later. If I get selected in a good company, then may be , I will not be depressed in the future as of I am now. After that I will delete this story.
My Life has teach me various lessons and even tell me who all are my real friends and who all are selfish friends. Even these online assessment for recruiting candidates, teaches me on what field do I need to work on in the future.
PS: Do not see my grammar Mistakes.
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